Trying to get my spunk back

So if you know me well you know that I am pretty much an optimist. I really try to look at what is positive about a situation. However, lately I am feeling a tad bit not like myself. I got sick 2 months ago and it really took a lot out of me. While I am not sick anymore I still can not sing (no I am not the greatest singer, but I do not have the part of my voice back). I avoid phone calls cause it strains to talk on the phone. It is driving me nuts. I drink tea with lemon and honey so much to try and help it, but still no luck. Then 2 weeks ago today I got 3 moles on my stomach taken off. Lucky for me skin cancer is pretty big and real in my family so they needed to come off. But one of them has gotten infected which resulted in another visit to the doc this afternoon. Then my dermatologist called me tonight to let me know that one of the moles came back as having atypical cells. Now while the cells did not come back as cancerous when they are atypical they turn into cancerous cells later in life down the road. At first I thought no biggie, that is pretty TYPICAL. But then he said that he would be referring me to the general surgeon to take more skin off. I have been changing bandages on my stomach two times a day for the last two weeks and still have at least another week left. Then when I can get into the surgeon I will have another wound to take care of. The best part of this is that I still need to get 4 more moles off my back that look atypical. Fun times for Krissy. Anyway so I am just not feeling like my spunky self. I am in no way writing this to get attention, so please do not think that, I just had to let it all out, and thought some of you out there would find some pleasure in knowing even the super positive Kristen has her days too.

The good thing is that XMAS is almost here. And I LOVE ME SOME XMAS. We are going to be heading to Utah for 5 days and then to Arizona for 5 days. It is going to be so much fun. We will be taking the dogs and staying at Matt and KT's while they are in AZ, sadly won't be with them, then we will be driving from UT to AZ and stay with my parents. I really can't wait. We have a fun weekend planned coming up filled with fun with friends. Jer is on his way over for a yummy steak dinner that Aaron is going to make. It has been raining all day here which has been pretty fun for a change. I have a work xmas party tomorrow and another one next week. So I really do have lots to look forward to. My dogs are the best dogs in the whole world and honestly just looking in their eyes melts my heart. Not to mention just talked to Liam on skype which let's be honest makes my day anyday. There I go again, even when I try to be negative the positive just comes out. Dang it, I really just want to lay in bed and feel sorry for myself, but that I can't even do.